an adrenaline rush meets life

who are you?

i am more than obsessed with you. i cant stop thinking about you. i cant stop fantasizing about you. i keep coming back to you. you are in all my plans. this is amazing. no this isn’t just amazing. this is the kind of feeling ive felt in an above and beyond feelpoint. this is not ephemeral. this feeling just keeps growing stronger even after 4 years of being and growing together. who are you? i know you are mine and you are here but who are you? where do you come from? this desire i have for you is too intense. its too fucking intense! i feel like i have so much to love and hurt you. i went away and came back feeling more than ever. you do not compromise and you will get there as whom you are. and i will get there as whom i am. you loved and hurt me and you will continue to love and hurt me. you watched me grow and you will continue to watch me grow. you are my process. you are my transition. you are my change. the whole of me with an experience of you makes me alive. to feel like i am human, i can love, i have emotions and i am okay. i am an independent person with a dependent condition on you. i know i will fall hard for you in all the many ways as i have. i will and want to look at you over and over again. i have so much to feel about you. i have so much to look forward together with you. all the smiles, all the laughs, all the cries, all the frowns, all the stares, all the fights, all the peace, all the touch, all the smell, all the love making, all the intimacy. you are more than an addiction, more than an obsession, more than an infatuation, could the word limerence possibly nutshell it all? i think it is even more than limerence. i am tree, you are all of earth and nature and we will grow on, into, against, together with each other and this will go on and on in all the presence of time and space and forever into nothingness until everything is beyond our choice to not want to exist anymore.