NEVER GROWING UP
everything is transitory
when you loose someone whom you really love to search their way in life or happiness that is, you kind of feel like its the most painful thing ever. the worst is knowing that you are not enough to make this love happy. you cant love the way they want to be loved. i think knowing that they cant make you happy is less worst. atleast all you had to do was lower your expectations. there was something that you could do. but to know you cant make someone happy or love them the way they want to be loved is pain. people say that there is no way you would not fall in love all over again. i agree. there is no way that you could possibly only fall in love with one person in your whole life time knowing that there is not another one that you could possibly fall in love with and have that love returned to you. there will always be another someone. always. its come to a point where i really feel that love isn’t just an emotion or feeling anymore, its completely beyond that and its really a choice after a certain transition. sometimes the one whom you love the most isn’t the one you will be spending the rest of you life with. choice. people choose the best for themselves. people always do. even in the most immersed heartfelt love between 2 people. everything is transitory you see. even love. its extremely tragic.
my senior, lip chin
invited me to his studio to work on a project together for his upcoming solo show next year and everyone should look out for it because its gonnaaaaa be mind blowing.
too fast
i really cannot get enough of wim wenders and i really cannot get enough of apparat. i dont know what to do now.
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clint mansell with kronos quartet and mogwai - death is a disease
from the brilliant film, the fountain by the brilliant darren aronofsky.
connie
i just found out that cokey’s original name was connie as given by her previous owner. grands & everyone else calls her coco, i call her cokey/crunchy/cocaine etc etc while my uncle calls her siaotingtong (crazyass in some slang) - (which she also responses too apparently). call her connie and she will still trott over anyway because it just sounds like cokey.
so, have i mentioned? cokey responses to the following songs:
deadmau5 - not exactly
naked & famous - young blood
couer de pirate - comme des enfants
sally shapiro - he keeps me alive
broken social scene - lover s spit
karen o & the kids - heads up
delorean - deli
they are all the ringtones that i use for my cell and cokey responses so well to them for some reason.
not too long ago, i was in the kitchen with grands making my rocket salad when cokey started barking. her barks alerted my senses which made me realized that my phone was ringing. went to the living where my phone was at (on the floor) and guess what i saw. cokey sitting by my phone with 2 missed calls from my lover. she was barking at my phone trying to alert me. SMART. REAL SMART.
shes so fucking cuteee, sooo cute, soooo good girl, so so so good girl coke. you are my muse you know that cokey. i hope we make you a very happy dog because thats all i want for you. you deserve nothing but the best. i know that when you go, ill move on but my world will never be at her best again.
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toro y moi - talamak
if you dislike this song..
god, i just dont know what else to say.
i said to him,
ill grow old with you and youll grow young with me.
my new book
in the process! i really cannot wait for it to be out. I REALLY CANNOT!
just a few more weeks. just a few more.
ive made some new mixed media work and its going to be in it too. 
left, studies on transfers and right, laying out with my rep.
draft and spine + text color selection for embossing. 
color proofs on final drafts.
my rep trying to finalize the adjustments for front cover.
“LAYERS AL LAYERS! GIVE ME YOUR NAMES AND NEHAO IN LAYERS!”
i think he was frustrated that i was unable to understand at first. hehe. sorry, jinggggg.
well. i am sooooooo excited!
PPPPP.SSSSSSSS/// they are limited editions and will be on sale too :)
GRAPHEME zine lab exhibit
most recently i was part of a DIY zine exhibit that i never knew about. my rep passed my booklet to GRAPHEME and a good friend helped gave the green signal something something like that. i only found out about the exhibit the day after the opening. its also my first time exhibiting with my rep. here are some photographs of the really really really cool exhibit that took place at the old lasalle school at goodman road. 
a wave of too many many many foundation memories swam into me while i was there too. god i cant believe how fast time has passed. a minute ago i was 18 and now i am 81. or atleast soon to be. i know i am exaggerating. but still.
al&alicia fall/winter 11 campaign
made these for al&alicia’s fall/winter 11 collection with rafaella from UPFRONT sometime in march, the day before my adidas campaign shoot. and i so love the polka dots coat and this dress below:
please check out their garments online at http://alandalicia.com/store or at the following local stores:
Blackmarket No.2, Singapore – 181 Orchard Road, Orchard Central
Antipodean, Singapore – 27A Lorong Mambong, Holland Village
Lula Rock, Singapore – 9 Scotts Road, Pacific Plaza
Vol.Ta Marque, Singapore – 2 Handy Road, The Cathay Orchard
style weddings editorial
editorial work i did for style weddings issue 18, sept 11 - feb 12!
art direction: allyson klass
styling: jasmine alimin
hair: reo
make up: tinoq using M.A.C
hair & make up assistance: dylan
model: ksenia from AVE
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apparat - goodbye (instrumental)
there
isn’t
anything
to
not
like
about
THE
DEVIL’S
WALK.
apparat really just keeps getting better.
who are you?
i am more than obsessed with you. i cant stop thinking about you. i cant stop fantasizing about you. i keep coming back to you. you are in all my plans. this is amazing. no this isn’t just amazing. this is the kind of feeling ive felt in an above and beyond feelpoint. this is not ephemeral. this feeling just keeps growing stronger even after 4 years of being and growing together. who are you? i know you are mine and you are here but who are you? where do you come from? this desire i have for you is too intense. its too fucking intense! i feel like i have so much to love and hurt you. i went away and came back feeling more than ever. you do not compromise and you will get there as whom you are. and i will get there as whom i am. you loved and hurt me and you will continue to love and hurt me. you watched me grow and you will continue to watch me grow. you are my process. you are my transition. you are my change. the whole of me with an experience of you makes me alive. to feel like i am human, i can love, i have emotions and i am okay. i am an independent person with a dependent condition on you. i know i will fall hard for you in all the many ways as i have. i will and want to look at you over and over again. i have so much to feel about you. i have so much to look forward together with you. all the smiles, all the laughs, all the cries, all the frowns, all the stares, all the fights, all the peace, all the touch, all the smell, all the love making, all the intimacy. you are more than an addiction, more than an obsession, more than an infatuation, could the word limerence possibly nutshell it all? i think it is even more than limerence. i am tree, you are all of earth and nature and we will grow on, into, against, together with each other and this will go on and on in all the presence of time and space and forever into nothingness until everything is beyond our choice to not want to exist anymore. 
